I have been wondering how much of bad days are due to waiting? Essentially I’m waiting for everything now; to hear about getting a new job and if so, waiting to find out how fast I can find a place to live and waiting for my partner to fly half across the world to come home with me.
Everything feels like it’s in a stand still which can be very frustrating. And I have noticed how badly I deal with frustration. Stress and worries I can sort in my head in a logical way and have them dealt with before they become a problem but waiting kills me. You just sit and wait for someone else to make their move before you can start doing yours. All the million ideas and questions in my head won’t go away until someone else says yes or no. How maddening is that? All that makes me overly sensitive to everything, in a negative way. I get upset, I pout, I cry, I’m a martyr… And I don’t know how to stop myself when I get that emotional. Or maybe it just means I haven’t learnt to deal with negative emotions?
So that will be the lesson of the day, read and learn ways to deal with frustration. Surely not solved in a day but a start.
